Crazy/Beautiful

It's amazing how quickly a person can change under the duress of emotions. Even though the feeling itself is wholly positive the effect torments me.

How is it possible to miss someone in two days? And especially when I know I can meet him everyday if I wanted? How is it that I just like being with him?

Questions like these confuse me.

Even though I have been in relationships before I was in perfect control. I never liked someone too much because I knew it would cloud my judgment. When I felt that his emotions were too powerful I automatically retreated and maintained my distance. The raw power of emotions scared me. It was not the matter of commitment, now that I think of it. I was just scared by something I knew I couldn't control.

Now I'm held captive by the same emotions I'd been trying to run away from. The intensity by which we treat each other is just -- dramatic. That's the only word that befits this situation. Perhaps every couple is like this and I'm just not used to this kind of romantic, eeky stuff. Regardless, I'm happy.
 It's amazing that we want each other on the perfectly same level. It's natural for a couple to have an issue in regards to emotional and physical intimacy. I know so because in the past that always held true for me. But I don't have to worry about it with him. The cheesiness we exhibit when we're alone would be considered okay only in Harlequin romance varieties.

I fear that my cynicism is failing me.