Going on a diet

Last night I came home all happy and recharged after having another wonderful dinner with my team. (One of my co-workers had her birthday and we celebrated.) Everything was great until my mom came to my room and bluntly asked me:
"Don't you seriously think you need to lose some weight?"

Mom had always treated my weight issue very gingerly and especially because my boyfriend had been kind of hinting at the fact that he wanted me to lose a few pounds, I had been very self-conscious about my body. I felt so embarrassed, humiliated, and betrayed. It was my MOM -- one person who could just tell me that I looked fine the way I was. Of course I wouldn't believe her. But it's just nice to hear mom saying that I look okay.

I had already been trying to lose weight. I changed my lunch menu to low-cal dishes that had a lot of veggies, I walked more, and I had begun to do some exercises. Nothing changed drastically but I figured that it was better to start things off easy so I can gradually increase the intensity of my routine.

I contribute my over sensitivity to PMS partially but I was hurt. Deeply. Mom still doesn't know that she did something so hurtful to me.

But -- being the secretly optimistic person that I am, I'm trying to see this as a positive thing. Sometimes I DO need some kick in the butt.