A friend that hasn't spoken to you for several years suddenly contacts you, and says she needs you for something. Are you glad that she asked for help (i.e. came to you for help), or are you offended that she's just talking to you now that she needs help?
As for me, I felt both. One after the other. At first I was happy to help, but then I slowly came to realization she contacted me just because I could help her. Nothing more.
Frankly I don't know how I should feel about this. I'm her friend. I was happy to help, as I should be. But now that she isn't speaking to me again I feel like I've been taken advantage of. I don't expect her to email me every day like I live right beside her; a little bit of update would suffice just fine.
I don't think she would've hurt my feelings as much had she not talked to me like my internship didn't mean much.
I had felt like this when I was in high school. I was so happy to help ESL students (for reasons I must admit not purely altruistic) but I soon realized that they were just using me. I guess I kind of asked for it.
It's funny that I should still fall for this kind of things even at this age. My naivete sickens me sometimes.
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